Fallen

Wud up. Yesterday wuz da minx and i went without telling mummy and sha i had a good tyme. i think. Taiwo did not come. idiot like him. I'm gonna insult him when i mail him now. sha yawa now came and i slept outside for the first time without mummy's permission
Later called Tony a bout 9oclock . he said it wuz nice talkin' 2 me and dat he would dream of me. and im thinking im ur younger sisters mate. He's like i should give him a chance 2 show how much he ikes me and crap like dat. N. E ways I met Flow* and danced with him like crazy and everybody wuz watching us and tony's friend told him dat he saw his friend. The he asked me " or arent we friends?" I'm like- I think. He's like- u think?
I said " okay, think yes, you decide whatever.

Turns out I've been at back to back partying for a while. LOL.
I remember repeatedly checking my yahoo mail for emails from taiwo, because it was either the land line or emails. and GOD FORBID my sister pick up the phone and find out he as calling me.

15 year old me should have given tony a proper chance.

He would have been a more devoted " friend" than Taiwo.

But at 15, i actually thought yoruba boys were the shit.



Note: I've found it increasingly difficult to write about both boy, but they are always there in my journals. popping up randomly here and there. Its difficult because both are late, and while i remember them fondly. I regret not getting closure.